Thoughts of a Twisted Soul

I just saw my old post here on tumblr. That was the last post I did when I was still where I should be. Looking back, half of me says I shoul be glad because I’m far away from that jungle. But half of me says, if I didn’t leave that jungle would I be a better person or would I be like a Monkey by now? But also, there is a little part of me, like 1/4 part of me that says God was protecting me from all the harm that I didn’t deserve.

I am taken away, snatched and seized to a place I am safer.

But what will you do when you’re safe but boredom is killing you slowly. unimaginably slowly? I admit I miss the thrill of the jungle. I was Tarzan, I was not Jane. I was the prodigy of the Tarzan of the 21st century. I was fighting everyday but when a man from the city, full of obscenity, full of grim, snatches me away; life was more quiet. To be honest, it was not his intention to make my life better or give me peace. His intention was to break me, even before he was in the guise of good. He became a monster obviously. I hated the monster and I climbed and glided the trees, I embraced to be strayed and free but always with fear while running away from the misery the man from the 21st century brought me.

Right now, I am in a far quiet place BUT I think in God’s grace, I will have to find a shelter again. This is another of those stop overs I’ve been pondering about quietly as we were roving back and forth the dark express way of NLEX towards and back from Tarlac where the only safe thing to do is to NEVER stop unless; you see the lights inviting you to STOPOVER the petrol station with the modernized variety of cafeterias which makes you feel like not going back to travel the dark road again.

In God’s grace I will soon be back on track. I will learn to adjust in this 21st century-man infested world.

busy and tiring when i was not even able to finish everything i had to do in the office. why? because i am doing the job of three people on vacation…is that right? I dont think so! but what can i do? i was promised a promotion! f***

Hello tumblr people, the Philippines and the entire world!

This is the first day of 2010!

yesterday, I was so tired form work that I felt collapsing. New Years day is special to us and we celebrate it with food! lots and lots of them!

When I came home, I tried logging in to facebook many times yet the system is down here in Abu Dhabi. I heard that etisalat our network provider has been having issues with facebook not availing their product for some reason I know nothing of. They say that it is the reason why facebook seems to be under maintenance every time we open it. It shows two things only: one is error, second: nothing at all. it is giving me a hard time. i am planning to go back to friendster or use my hi5 account instead. Facebook is very disappointing. People will grow tired of your slow system and will eventually change accounts if you allow this situation to continue.

Many people were inviting to gout to party. one a costume party, one a dinner with my sis’ office friends, lastly, a party of royal meridien. but what can I do, I was too tired to even change clothes before sleeping. but of course I did. It is an awful feeling not to change to your pajamas! (I love pajamas! because it is winter time here!)

The bottom line, I missed the festivities even in our own place I missed meeting the people they invited over for a dinner in our place. I was not able to eat during Media Noche and woke up 4:30am without my sister because she went to all those parties I mentioned.

What a New Year!

Happy New Year Everyone!!! I wish us all happiness and love in our hearts! may God always be with us all.

Inshaallah!